n♥vember

When you get bored with it………

“When you truly love someone, sometimes you become insane, you become possessive and do mad things.” -Priyanka Jain

Aku terlalu sayang, aku terlalu takut untuk kehilangan…

Aku berusaha menggenggamnya sekuat tenaga tapi hanya membuatnya semakin hilang dari genggaman…

Aku berusaha untuk menjaganya tapi hanya membuatnya lari dari pandangan…

Aku terlalu sayang, namun pada akhirnya aku melakukan kesalahan…

“I swear to you - I will always be there for you -
there’s nothin’ I won’t do
I promise you - all my life I will live for you - we
will make it through
Forever - we will be
Together - you and me” -Bryan Adams (I’ll Always Be There)

Aku tidak akan berhenti, aku tidak akan lari

Kali ini aku ingin mempertahankan sampai titik maksimalnya

Aku akan selalu disini, menunggu, menunggu, dan menunggu

Pantang bagiku menyerah,

Karena bagiku, pantas untuk diperjuangkan

Aku akan disini, menanti

“Loved you once, love you still. Always have, always will” -Mary Schmich

Aku ingin yang terakhir,

Biar waktu menjawab semua

Sejauh langkah kakiku berjalan,

Akan kutatap lurus ke depan.

Aku takkan berpaling ke tujuan lain…

Nyuui, aku tau apa yang kamu rasa saat ini. Tapi ini belum berakhir, aku tidak ingin mengakhirinya, karena aku masih sayang dan akan selalu sayang kamu. Aku ga akan menyerah untuk berusaha bisa menjadi yang terakhir untukmu.

‎”my heart is, and always be, yours” -sense and sensibility (1995)

29th August 2010

August 29th, my birthday. I was turn 18 now.

I remembered, just a month ago, We just Had many plans for this month. We’ve planned to had dinner on my birthday, and you also have plans for my birthday, but nothing walked on the plan. 

despite all the way outside the plan,

August is still the most beautiful months for me. This August will be unforgotten, even this is much more beautiful than what I ever imagined.

Do you remember? When I was getting frustrated with all my assignments, you are come to encouraged . You’re willing to meet me at night just to take me home, You’re willing to accompany me until dawn when I try to finishing my task. Have you know that is very meaningful for me?

Then you get sick, right after I finished ‘ospek’. You must be lying limp almost a week. Have you know how much I worried about you? Have you know that, that week was the toughest week for me? Have you know how much I missed you at the time?

Indeed because of that, our plan to give a birthday surprise for your mama was failed. Our dinner plans ultimately fail. But at least now you had get well. You’re back cheerfully. Because, have you know that as long as you’re sick, I miss your laughter?

Maybe you feel failed to give a birthday surprise for me. But Honey, for me it was still the best birthday ever. Did you know that my heart was beating really fast when you have to call me promptly at 00.00 to say happy birthday to me? I will always remember our one hour conversation at the time :)

and a birthday present from you, a little doll that makes you think I would not like it, but in reality I was very happy when getting that dolls (I named it ‘Molly’: D)

and when you say, ‘I bought this doll just long time ago. When I see this doll I remember you, because you both was so little hehe. So I buy it ‘, Do you know how much I want to hug you at that time?

and when you say with a sad face, ‘I am angry. Because I’m sick, I was not able to frame the photos that I’ve prepared for your birthday. I also mess up our dinner plans. I’m sorry’ , Did you know that I really wanted to cry at that moment?

Nyuui, thank you for this beautiful month. Although not everything went according to our plans, but you really had to show me how much you love and care about me. You had made me feel so meaningful for you. Thank you Thank you Thankyou.

 I love you

This is Molly :D

AugustWish

“August rushes by like desert rainfall,
A flood of frenzied upheaval,
Expected,
But still catching me unprepared.
Like a match flame
Bursting on the scene,
Heat and haze of crimson sunsets.
Like a dream
Of moon and dark barely recalled,
A moment,
Shadows caught in a blink.
Like a quick kiss;
One wishes for more
But it suddenly turns to leave,
Dragging summer away.”
-  Elizabeth Maua Taylor 

Then,

August is my birthday.

August was become fasting month

August, the sign when I’ll come back to the reality.

I hope,

August would be my month

August would make me more mature

August would be the unforgetable month

So,

August, please be nice to me

pk 22.48 . yang ditunggu tak kunjung tiba. should I just keep waiting?

July 31st

Today, July 31st.

My last holiday and end of this month.

Thankyou, you have made my vacation perfect.

Thankyou, you’re always there when I was lonely.

Maybe, I can’t accompany you for next two weeks but I’ll try to find a little time just to see you. And don’t forget. I had dinner plan on my birthday with you ;)

Nyuui, aku tau aku manja banget sm kamu selama liburan. aku selalu ngerengek ditemenin pergi atau sekedar di rumah.

Maaf kalau aku banyak menyita waktumu dan merepotkanmu. :)

The last, I really thankyou for willing to catch up me when I planed to spent my last holiday alone. Thankyou for the ice cream and chocolate coin :) thankyou for your patience when everytime I said “terserah. kemana aja” :D

Thankyou thankyou thankyou :* You’ll never know how precious you are for me. I love you :*

ps: insyaAllah tgl 3 ada kabar baik :) jgn pernah putus asa ya sayang ;) dan selamat menjalankan ibadah puasa :D ini ramadhan pertama kita loh ;)

MorphThing

iseng-iseng gue browsing, trs nemu “MorphThing” http://www.morphthing.com . Jadi disini kita bisa gabungin dua foto atau melihat akan seperti apa nantinya anak dari dua orang atau lbh hanya dgn mengupload foto lalu tekan “morph.

then gue mencoba melihat akan seperti apa nanti anak gue dan Gugun. and……

Voila! this is our baby’s look like, nyuui :D isn’t she’s cute? :3

The Message

I remember when that day, in the afternoon, you sent me this message.

Honey, I’d just listen Maroon 5’s song.

“Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: “Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?”
Hard to believe that

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you”

kiss :*

You know what my dear? I’m speechless.

This message has shown to me how much you care of me. How much you think of me :’)

Thankyou, Nyuui. Thankyou. But you know what the different between this song lyric and us?

The girl on the lyric had leave the boy. But I don’t. I’ll never leave you :)